2016

It’s currently 1:42am on Saturday, December 31st, 2016. 

When I was little, the countdown to Christmas went by in the time it took you to blink. Then before you knew it you were counting down the days until New Year, and until you had to go back to school, and that seemed to go even faster.

But I’m grown now, and the end of 2016 feels like these last few months have staggered and almost crawled to the end.

2016 will probably not be looked on fondly when people look back years from now. I can practically feel the echoing wave of collective sighs of relief when the clock ticks over around the world into the near year. To a lot of people, 2016 has felt like one long drawn out ending. We’re all holding our breath.

Good things happened; of course they always do. It can take longer to look for them sometimes. I feel like this year my photography finally took a step forward – it’s closer to where I want it to look, feel. I’m still not there (I’ll never feel quite “there”, I don’t even know where “there” is) but it definitely took a leap over the seemingly immovable static I had been feeling.

 

Osric Chau, Captain America, Vegas Cosplay Portrait, 2016
Osric Chau, Captain America, Vegas Cosplay Portrait, 2016

 

Rob Benedict, Viper Room LA, June 2016
Rob Benedict, Viper Room LA, June 2016

 

Billy Moran, Viper Room June 2016
Billy Moran, Viper Room June 2016

 

Matt Cohen, Phoenix 2016
Matt Cohen, Phoenix 2016

 

I was privileged to get to work with incredible people, to be supported by incredible people. I was able to push myself way out of my comfort zone and found I liked it; no, I loved it. Even when I hated it, even when I was scared of it, I loved it.

 

Briana Buckmaster, Seattle 2016
Briana Buckmaster, Seattle 2016

 

Matt Cohen and Osric Chau, Phoenix 2016
Matt Cohen and Osric Chau, Phoenix 2016

 

Makayla, September 2016
Makayla, September 2016

 

Rob Benedict and Richard Speight Jr, Seattle 2016
Rob Benedict and Richard Speight Jr, Seattle 2016

 

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Osric, Vancouver 2016

 

Jared Padalecki and Jensen Ackles, Sunday, VanCon 2016
Jared Padalecki and Jensen Ackles, Sunday, VanCon 2016

 

Kim Rhodes and Rob Benedict, PhxCon 2016
Kim Rhodes and Rob Benedict, PhxCon 2016

 

Angie and Brooke, October 2016
Angie and Brooke, October 2016

 

Osric Chau, Phoenix 2016
Osric Chau, Phoenix 2016

 

Jared Padalecki, Misha Collins, Jensen Ackles PhxCon 2016
Jared Padalecki, Misha Collins, Jensen Ackles PhxCon 2016

 

Ruth Connell, SFCon 2016
Ruth Connell, SFCon 2016

 

Danielle, October 2016
Danielle, October 2016

 

2016 firmly cemented in my mind that portraiture is where my heart and soul is; it’s where I feel strongest, where I feel the most afraid, where I feel the most exhilarated. I was so, so fortunate I had such a wealth of amazing people that helped cement that for me.

 

Misha Collins, Vancouver 2016
Misha Collins, Vancouver 2016

 

Kat, LA 2016 Makeup by Vic Righthand
Kat, LA 2016
Makeup by Vic Righthand

 

Kim Rhodes, LA 2016 Makeup by Vic Righthand
Kim Rhodes, LA 2016
Makeup by Vic Righthand

 

Timothy Omundson, LA 2016
Timothy Omundson, LA 2016

 

Rob Benedict, LA 2016
Rob Benedict, LA 2016

 

But 2016 was an ending for me too. I don’t know what the future will bring, and it was an ending for me thinking that if I just sit back and be patient enough things will happen. I have to stop thinking that way. I need to become proactive and make things happen. Patience is a virtue, but so is passion and movement and action. If I really want this as much as I claim I do, I need to go out and get it.

I don’t know how.

I’m scared.

I will still tell myself I’m not good enough.

But I won’t listen anymore.

It’s now 2:22am, Saturday December 31, 2016. I’ll go to bed, wake up, and it will be the last day of this crazy, unrepeatable year.

Goodbye, 2016.

Hello, 2017. 

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  1. Wow. These are stunning. Especially the one of Tim and the profile of Osric. You’re so very talented – may many more people realise that in the coming year.

  2. You can pull such beauty from your subject. Your writing tells me how you are able to find the key piece for each subject. Finding what is the best in them and bringing that to the front: Osric’s internal strength, Kim ferocious nature, Jensen and Jared’s bond, or Misha’s deep intelligence. All this and more are your talents. Thank you for sharing them with us. Keep pushing your boundaries – flight is just a step away. And that’s a picture I can’t wait to see.
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