Jensen Ackles

2016

It’s currently 1:42am on Saturday, December 31st, 2016. 

When I was little, the countdown to Christmas went by in the time it took you to blink. Then before you knew it you were counting down the days until New Year, and until you had to go back to school, and that seemed to go even faster.

But I’m grown now, and the end of 2016 feels like these last few months have staggered and almost crawled to the end.

2016 will probably not be looked on fondly when people look back years from now. I can practically feel the echoing wave of collective sighs of relief when the clock ticks over around the world into the near year. To a lot of people, 2016 has felt like one long drawn out ending. We’re all holding our breath.

Good things happened; of course they always do. It can take longer to look for them sometimes. I feel like this year my photography finally took a step forward – it’s closer to where I want it to look, feel. I’m still not there (I’ll never feel quite “there”, I don’t even know where “there” is) but it definitely took a leap over the seemingly immovable static I had been feeling.

 

Osric Chau, Captain America, Vegas Cosplay Portrait, 2016

Osric Chau, Captain America, Vegas Cosplay Portrait, 2016

 

Rob Benedict, Viper Room LA, June 2016

Rob Benedict, Viper Room LA, June 2016

 

Billy Moran, Viper Room June 2016

Billy Moran, Viper Room June 2016

 

Matt Cohen, Phoenix 2016

Matt Cohen, Phoenix 2016

 

I was privileged to get to work with incredible people, to be supported by incredible people. I was able to push myself way out of my comfort zone and found I liked it; no, I loved it. Even when I hated it, even when I was scared of it, I loved it.

 

Briana Buckmaster, Seattle 2016

Briana Buckmaster, Seattle 2016

 

Matt Cohen and Osric Chau, Phoenix 2016

Matt Cohen and Osric Chau, Phoenix 2016

 

Makayla, September 2016

Makayla, September 2016

 

Rob Benedict and Richard Speight Jr, Seattle 2016

Rob Benedict and Richard Speight Jr, Seattle 2016

 

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Osric, Vancouver 2016

 

Jared Padalecki and Jensen Ackles, Sunday, VanCon 2016

Jared Padalecki and Jensen Ackles, Sunday, VanCon 2016

 

Kim Rhodes and Rob Benedict, PhxCon 2016

Kim Rhodes and Rob Benedict, PhxCon 2016

 

Angie and Brooke, October 2016

Angie and Brooke, October 2016

 

Osric Chau, Phoenix 2016

Osric Chau, Phoenix 2016

 

Jared Padalecki, Misha Collins, Jensen Ackles PhxCon 2016

Jared Padalecki, Misha Collins, Jensen Ackles PhxCon 2016

 

Ruth Connell, SFCon 2016

Ruth Connell, SFCon 2016

 

Danielle, October 2016

Danielle, October 2016

 

2016 firmly cemented in my mind that portraiture is where my heart and soul is; it’s where I feel strongest, where I feel the most afraid, where I feel the most exhilarated. I was so, so fortunate I had such a wealth of amazing people that helped cement that for me.

 

Misha Collins, Vancouver 2016

Misha Collins, Vancouver 2016

 

Kat, LA 2016 Makeup by Vic Righthand

Kat, LA 2016
Makeup by Vic Righthand

 

Kim Rhodes, LA 2016 Makeup by Vic Righthand

Kim Rhodes, LA 2016
Makeup by Vic Righthand

 

Timothy Omundson, LA 2016

Timothy Omundson, LA 2016

 

Rob Benedict, LA 2016

Rob Benedict, LA 2016

 

But 2016 was an ending for me too. I don’t know what the future will bring, and it was an ending for me thinking that if I just sit back and be patient enough things will happen. I have to stop thinking that way. I need to become proactive and make things happen. Patience is a virtue, but so is passion and movement and action. If I really want this as much as I claim I do, I need to go out and get it.

I don’t know how.

I’m scared.

I will still tell myself I’m not good enough.

But I won’t listen anymore.

It’s now 2:22am, Saturday December 31, 2016. I’ll go to bed, wake up, and it will be the last day of this crazy, unrepeatable year.

Goodbye, 2016.

Hello, 2017. 

Sunday | SPN VanCon 2013

Sunday is traditionally known as “J-Day” at a Creation Supernatural Convention. It is the day when Jensen Ackles and Jared Padalecki arrive, and have their breakfast panel, main panel, sign autographs and pose for hundreds of photos – alone, together or with Misha Collins.

The breakfast panel in the morning is for Gold ticket holders, and it is pretty much the most dressed up breakfast you will ever attend.

Jared Padalecki and Jensen Ackles, Gold Breakfast Panel

Jared Padalecki and Jensen Ackles, Gold Breakfast Panel

Fans crowd around assigned breakfast tables, and heavy DSLR cameras with huge lenses vie for position with cereal, toast and pastries. It is one of the weirdest things to experience, but when the guys come out and start shooting the breeze with everyone, it feels very natural. They are completely professional, and exude a genuine interest in the fans and what the following of the show is like. They joke and tell stories about the set, and even shed a little bit of light on their growing families.

Jared Padalecki

Jared Padalecki

Jensen Ackles

Jensen Ackles

I didn’t have any photo ops with the boys this time, so the next thing for me was their main panel. The auditorium was already crowded and dark when I found my seat, and they played fan made videos until Jared and Jensen made their way out.

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Jared and Jensen, J2 Main Panel

The boys were joined on the stage by director, writer and executive producer of Supernatural Bob Singer, who also added some insight into the behind the scenes process of the show. It is obvious the cast and crew are all very very close. Even cast members who haven’t been involved with the show for a long time are still treated as family by everyone.

Bob Singer, Jared Padalecki and Jensen Ackles

Bob Singer, Jared Padalecki and Jensen Ackles

Jensen Ackles

Jensen Ackles

Jared Padalecki

Jared Padalecki

At one stage, Misha Collins crashed the panel by bringing a tray of drinks out for everyone on stage, but I wasn’t quick enough to get a shot as he was coming up onto stage, and he didn’t turn around! I was so disappointed!

Towards the end of the panel, there were several auctions for charity. Bob Singer donated two books full of set photographs that are only given to cast and crew, and Jared auctioned off two prop paintings from the SPN episode French Mistake. All were sold for considerable amounts, and all money raised will go to various charities.

Jensen Ackles signs one of the photograph books for charity

Jensen Ackles signs one of the photograph books for charity

Jared Padalecki and the "Ruby" portrait up for auction

Jared Padalecki and the “Ruby” portrait up for auction

And that was that! That was VanCon for another year!

Once again, words cannot express how grateful I am to have found this show, these people. The friends I’ve made through going to these conventions and being involved in this fandom have changed my life.

I love everything about these weekends (well, maybe not the expense). But I have such a genuine affection for this whole cast and I hope even a portion of that comes through in my photos.

 

 

If you would like to see the rest of the photos from Sunday, visit the galleries here

If you would like to see the photos from Friday, visit the gallery here and read the blog post here

If you would like to see the photos from Saturday, visit the gallery here and read the blog post here